Ultimate Cost

It’s been hard for me to love anyone, ever since you left home,
As I find myself losing hope, wondering why I’m all alone.
I can’t quite grasp why you’re no longer here,
I’ve been searching for answers, but you’re nowhere near.

Not a day goes by where my heart doesn’t ache,
Instead, I’m forced to grow up and act like a fake.
I walk around with my head held up high,
But the reality is all I want to do is curl up and cry.

I’m supposed to act as if I’m fine,
But my façade falters at times.
Every day is a struggle, each careless step,
But I can’t help but shake the feeling I’m a danger, a threat.

Sometimes I scare myself, as reality hits,
As I find myself breaking, nearing my limits.
I want you to know that you were the best thing I ever lost,
And I’m so sorry that you were forced to pay the ultimate cost.